What kind of Asian am I?
- I did not grow up in a community of Filipino people, I don’t have an understanding of how being Filipino is different from being white besides a few culinary dishes growing up.
- I am half white and it was easy to identify with being white even though I do not look ‘white’. In college I actually had trouble relating to Filipino students from the Ethnic Student Center on campus. I did not feel ‘Filipino enough’.
- I felt that I was more defined by my sexuality, by the time I was in college I already identified as gay for many years and had actually experienced homophobia first hand.
- I did not recall a time when the fact that I was half-Filipino caused people to treat me differently in anyway (or at least that’s how I remember growing up).
College made me aware of my ethnicity, but I don’t think about it very much. Describing my ethnic identity would require a whole other entry, suffice to say, I identify as mostly white. Like most people I find it difficult to talk about race and ethnicity because it’s complex and weird and heavy and I can only tell you about what I think, and I am afraid that people will think what I think is incorrect.
Recently I saw this video by Ken Tanaka starring Stella Choe and Scott Beehner:
I don’t spend a lot of time thinking about my ethnicity, but maybe I should be more interested in it, because it seems like lot’s of other people are.